on second chance & uncommon dialogue.

seen the premiere of cinderella man last week. i do support sagip bayan of st lukes thus bought two tickets. after the organization's almost 45-minute mandatory programme, hay salamat, bumungad na agad si russel crowe (he is indeed charming, sa paningin ko). by the way, i guess meg ryan did find him irresistable too after spending some time while filming proof of life.

back to cinderella man. sad to say many are like jim braddock. not saving enough for the rainy days. guilty just like him, my husband was given opportunities to prove his skills and knowledge in the field of civil engineering. unfortunately, all three projects only indebted him to strangers and countless souls. i dont know if he sees himself as a failure, but i am certain that he is waiting for his nth chance to pick up the pieces and regain his self esteem (he is one proud man).

though i am by his side, i cant see the lessons-learned approach and the make-it-good-this-time attitude on him. or i dont know him that much maybe, as he always claims. but i do pray that he be successful on his new endeavor should he be given the break.

im afraid of second chances. ive been experiencing the same agony, happiness and other unexplainable emotion for the past three years. you see, i totally agree with neale donald walsch - God's most powerful messenger is experience, and even that i ignore. Yes, my world would not be in its present condition should i simply listened to my experience. i keep on re-living it over and over. but again, i would not experience the same happiness i feel whenever my kids do something cute if not for that lapse of judgment.

may be ive been reading and watching too much. and most of these books and films claim to be life-changing bestsellers.